Time to Sort My Feelings

It was been a while since I posted. So much has happened and yet so much is the same. I am learning to sort through the rollercoaster of emotions that are a part of this journey. I have come to terms with some misconceptions in my life. I am at peace now.

Ethelyn and I will continue to care for daddy as his caregivers and I appreciate her devotion to daddy more and more every day. I believe we make a secure loving team as we devote our time to daddy. We will see that Daddy feels loved every day. Seeing that he is comforted by our smiles, our touch, our voices means the world to us. I am more committed to being there with him through this journey in his life. I consider it a privledge and I will not expect anyone else to understand - for only Ethelyn and I can truly understand the ups and downs of the rollercoaster - because we are there. We will cry, we will be tired, we will be emotionally drained a lot of the time - but the smiles and touches of daddy are worth every visit. I have to let go and not waste my life energy wondering about others. Daddy will get all my energy from this day forward.

I am so blessed to have Ken. He cares for daddy and understands the journey. He is very supportive and will always be there to hold my hand when I don't think I can go on.